It has been some time that I paused to update on this blog. Here are some of the little update of my life while I'm away.
1. I'm happily married now with an awesome husband Johan. It's a blessing to have him in my life.
2. I build my cooking skill and this is one of hobby now aside of having a good chat with someone.
3. My youngest sister is staying with me now after more than decade which we are not staying together.
That's a little update about me. And now I want to share my experience, my weird yet awesome experience which Y let me have.
Last Sunday 15 Sept 2014, 7.45 a.m. I was awake from my sleep. But because it's still early for me to wake up (it's Sunday... ) so I decided to continue my sleep. After a few seconds I fell into a deep sleep and I had a dream.
In my dream I was in my grandma house which has now been renovated and my uncle stay there. But in my dream the house have not been renovated. There was pastor and some church staff visited to the house and sit at the living room. When I was about to enter my room, there was a monkey sitting at my bed watching TV and holding the remote control. I was shocked and I shouted to the people in the house that there is a monkey in the room. They asked me to chase the monkey away but when tried the monkey didn't move at all. He played with the remote control switching the channel. So I was so frustrated I called my parent to help me. They tried but the result still the same. Though we tried to throw things to him he still there. So my mum become so frustrated she open the window, then catch the monkey and throw the monkey out of the window. Since the room so messy, we all tidy up the room. after we finish with the room, I saw a lot of kitten in the living room. (FYI, I don't like animal.) I tried to chase them by stomping my feet but they are still cool. They didn't move at all. And again I became so frustrated. Remember the pastor and church staff who visited the house, they are in the living room sitting comfortably and told me to "keep trusting God and have faith in Him". I felt so weird with this pastor, they didn't help at all but just talk only and I felt there is no relationship between the two. But I ignored them and continue to try to chase the kitten. And I called up my mum, and my mum shouted back to ask me to throw them out of the window. So I take courage and grab the kitten one by one and throw them out of the window. There are a lot of other kittens which they walking around near the window to wait for a chance to enter the house. But I don't let them have the chance. When it's the last kitten to throw, the kitten grab my hand tightly. So I have to give more strength to throw the kitten out of my hand. When I just wanted to throw it, I saw the face change to a puppy. and the teeth out. Because I scared that the puppy will bite my hand when I throw it, I slowly pretend that I want to put it back to the house. In that moment, I look at the puppy closely and I feel that it is cute. A very small puppy, and I thought it will be harmless to me. But there was a voice saying to me to throw it. I have to throw it.
Suddenly I awake and God directly told me what is the meaning of my dream.
The animals represent the sin or bad habit or character which we need to clean up. But many times we want other people to clean it up for us. We even sometimes blaming other people of causing us to have the sin or bad habit character. We asked our parents to fix it for us. We wanted our leader or our pastor to fix for us. but they all can help up but it will not fix the problem. We need to do it ourselves. It's our lives. We might feel disgusting with our sin but its there in our life so we need to deal with it. We have to face it. And maybe there is a sin which we might feel it's just a small sin and it's harmless. But God want us to throw them all.
This is my first experience to have a dream which I receive the meaning once I awake.
The additional awesome thing happen when today 17 sept 2014, morning during my trip to office I listened to Philip Mantofa sermon of 5 Father message. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fi2Q4FVibAM). He shared that he has experience a dream which i feel it's similar to what I experienced. And he also got a similar message as what i get and he complete my understanding of my dream. in his first message, he shared that God want us not to let evil have a chance to destroy our lives, so we have to totally clean it.
